Many program members suffer from long-standing and repressed resentments, shame, and insecurity due to prior sexual experiences, which lingers for years below the surface. In this sense, a thorough exploration of our sexual conduct in the past, especially as it relates to exposing character flaws or blemishes in us is essential. However, experience has shown that sexual conduct is intimately linked to our views of ourselves and our views of others. Sexual Conduct/Harm Done to Othersĭepending on your temperament, this section can prove somewhat unnerving. Some helpful thoughts when considering your fears include asking yourself, “What do I fear today?” Then move forwards and backward and ask yourself, “What do I fear from the past?” and “What do I fear about the future?” 3. Of course, there are some fears that are not as easily removed or even identifiable, but that is why you have a sponsor to help you in the process. However, you may be amazed at how they seem to dissipate the moment you jot them down. Listing your fears may feel like an endless task. Don’t forget that part of this process includes taking an honest look at resentments towards yourself, as well as resentments or reservations that you may have about things relevant to the program, such as the program itself or a Higher Power. Usually, resentments are oriented towards a person, object, place, or thing and, in this sense, having a specific list via pen and paper is essential for listing these items. This does not necessarily include the negative mental or emotional impulses that cause you to drink, but the thoughts you harbor that cause detrimental emotional or mental experiences from the past to the present. List any thoughts, experiences, memories, ideas, beliefs, or observations from your entire life that currently cause you negative emotional or mental experiences. The 4th Step inventory should contain three critical parts: resentments, fears, and sexual conduct/harm done to others. The program member must see his or her inventory on paper in front of them to ensure thoroughness and coherence in their thoughts about themselves and others. The Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous specifically mentions the importance of putting the aspects of the 4th Step down in “pen and paper.” That is, this inventory cannot and should not be an oral inventory. First, worry about executing the 4th Step in a thorough manner, and then work through your fears about having to share it with someone else. There may also be some fear of the 5th Step, in which a member must divulge the contents of their 4th Step to another individual (ideally their sponsor), that inhibits the work of the fourth. Only after this initial work in the program is the process of creating a workable 4th Step possible. First Things FirstĪs you may have heard already in the program: “first things first.” Be sure that you are properly set up to work on your 4th Step by having fully gone through the first three steps with another program member. What this step really asks of the member is much deeper and thorough than anyone may realize at the outset, but with a little diligence and support from a sponsor, the benefits are well worth the effort. The 4th Step in Alcoholics Anonymous asks members to make “a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.” This request is not an arbitrary one but has been proven to be essential in establishing a sound foundation for recovery.
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